exam OMG

Now i know what thing i hate most in my life.. even I hate it more than : 1. waiting at the car wash : oh it sucks to wait 2 hours or so and then the next morning it's all already wet cause of the STUPID rain, 2. waiting the traffic in front of my college  3. all the other waiting activities : yeah the former thing i hate the most is waiting and especially if i get nothing after the long wait..
Nah back to the topic,,, NOW I KNOW WHAT THING I HATE THE MOST IN MY LIFE.. thats the  stupid moron exams that i have to pass once in a month... Surely there's no rest after the exam... they come relentlessly, torturing you ONCE IN A MONTH physically and mentally... That's why it SUCKS... and tomorrow I have another stupid tests to pass but I have been lazying around this month and I don't care anymore.. What I want the most is free holiday (like 2-3 months laying on the beach get a sunburned WITHOUT TASKS TO COMPLETE THE DAY AFTER HOLIDAY)...

invinsible... untouchable...

i don't know if any of you ever feel this kinda feeling... when you feel that anyone around you does already know that you are around but still somehow manage to ignore you completely... It's like you ARE invisible to anyone... untouchable... yeah that's nothing good to be ignored.. that's why i write this... Lately I often feel this kind of feeling... it's like you're still feeling lonely despite you are surrounded by all your friends... No one care about you when it's THE moment you think you need the caring so much... you could think that this way I am being selfish... I want other people attention and don't give any so none cares for me... No that's not it.. I don't want anybody's attention.. I don't want fame and popularity.. I just don't want to be IGNORED...

I'm doomed...

OMG... I don't know what God has prepared for me for this week... I think I spent my time studying for the exam.. But What the Hell.. I have a feeling I have failed today's exam and have to repeat the exam again next week..  The exam is not that hard... It just what they are asking is different with what I have been studying.. It just so awful to come to think about the exam again... I'm so nervous and cause so many unnecessary  mistakes.. How stupid I am.. Even writing how stupid I was this morning can't bring some change to the result test... OMG... I'm so scared if they are finally putting the result of the exam this Saturday. I think the best way to overcome it is to suicide the day before it is posted.. Hahaha... Just kidding... But I hope if there was still miracle in my pitiful life.. I just hope that the miracle just bump into the test result and make me not have to repeat the exam again.. I'm praying with my deepest heart.. Please God make a miracle for the test result.. 

An alpha and an omega...

Yeah... it's kinda too late to post this at this time... It was released last year (actually a couple months ago).. But surely it has sooooo dramatic love story.. I am amazed the way they put the goddamn so-always love-theme plot into some fierce and brutal wolves' life.. It was begun by the unfated love between the alpha wolf (the future leader of the pack if I'm not mistaken) and the omega (the ordinary wolf)... There's an absolute rule that an alpha has to marry only another alpha.. I think it is still ordinary.. It just like the high class woman can't marry the ordinary street-man guy or visca versa... But yeah it's just only set into the wolves thing.. There are two packs of wolves-western pack and eastern pack- each claims the opposite side of the canada national park.. Then when the eastern side has nothing left to eat, they begin to hunt pass the territory boarding the west and east side.. Of course it leads into a big fight with the both sides want to claim the whole entire area.. It is settled that the alpha of the west side, Kate must marry the alpha of the east side, Garth and when they meet at the moonlight howl (it's so breath-taking) Garth doesn't leave a deep impression on Kate because his so ugly howls. And that's when the story begins. Kate was taken by the hunter to repopulate with another wolf-an omega named Humphrey who always wants to go out with her to another national park-Idaho. Kate has to come back to Jasper in no time if she wants the both packs are still in good condition. With the help of two gooses they set their adventure to come home with so much love drama and Kate starts to have feelings for Humphrey. Meanwhile at Jasper, Garth also fall in love with Kate's sister whick is also an omega (cool plot).. Kate's sister teach him how to howl and in return Garth teaching him how to hunt..  I really love when the two of them howls as an alpha and an omega breaking the taboo that an alpha can only howl with only another alpha.. When Kate and Humphrey come back home, the two packs have started the fight.. Kate arrives just in time to declare that she will marry Garth to reunite the packs against her feeling to the omega she really falls in love.. But yeah in the end Kate realize that she can't do it with Garth and cancels the wedding ceremonial.. Of course it give tension to the eastern clan... But after the stampede when Kate and Humphrey save the leader of the two packs, her father agree his alpha daughter to marry with the omega Humphrey and also Garth's father also agree that his alpha son can marry with the omega (Kate's sister).. It comes to a happy ending at the end.. Cool romance story, cool graphic.. It just shows us that true love can't be blocked just by a social status and if we persist striving for the love, it will bear the most beautiful fruit ever..  Let's howl together..

Today is sure like hell

Since it wasn't gonna rain anymore, I decided to 'hunt' some shirts... I only have few and surely I need some extras for college.. I cursed myself... Why am I stuck in this size?? I'm thin and rather short for boy's size.. So the shirt fitted to me is only small size... It's very hard to find the good one in small size... All the good stuffs are in L or M size... I took 2 hours for me to bump into a couple of good shirts in small size... But what was I looking for is the shirts in the display and it had no S for the size.. I cursed myself again... I've been doing swimming since I was in elementary school... But I'm still in this height for about 2 years... What?! No progress at all... May be it's what make life fair... You couldn't get all the best in your life... Sometimes you're born with some excellent talents but surely you are lack of something else... Just like me... May be I would just accept  it whatever I am since I can't do anything to fix my body either.. But it's sucks to search good clothes for me if I have sth to argue... Now I don't need anything but rest... Walking off two hours in vain surely take all my stamina off... Nite everyone...

I really hate MONDAY... It's MoanDay actually...

Bah.. I got my butt up at 7 this morning... I used to get up at 10 before... So it's kinda hard to get up that early... I wonder if today was Tuesday before I realized Tuesday would be more pain in the ass... If I got up at 7 on Tuesday, I would prefer to die... I might not be able to bear the shame being the one who was late at the first day of orientation... I might no be able to eat the peas just like they have told me if I was late even just a minute... Just thinking 'bout it make me feel sick... After I got up I take my graduation photos... It is lovely... I was in the good shape when the photo was taken.. hahaha... Nothing to be ashamed off... Just after I grabbed my good mood, I thought the day would be perfect... I was totally wrong... The next hour was the worst pain in the neck I've ever had... I had to go to my college and they forced me to dot (or bald the options actually, dotting would be much easier) the answers of somewhat test and I had to do it 567 times at once.. My thumbs was already numb when I reached 200 and there were still more to dot... Fucked YOU... I swear it would swell tonight... But I hope it wouldn't... I don't want to be a freak with a swollen right hand tomorrow... I still can feel the pain until now... And the test was AWESOME... It's totally unworthy to be answered.. The question was just  like : DO YOU LIKE COOKING?? And we only have two answers for all the question... YES or No.. It was that simple... But it was pain when you have to bald all your answers... And I have nothing to do now... If the sky wasn't just like ''it was gonna rain in a minute" I think I would hunt some shirts this time.. But It is gonna rain soon... And I have nothing to do besides I am writing this crap at the moment...

My first day blogging....

Whoaaa... I never ever think I would waste my time creating a blog and pour myself into it... It's just nostalgic.. I know I'm snoob in tech and sort of things like that... But yeah... I just need something to KILL my time now... Today is my first orientation day.. I just wish today would be PERFECT.. Getting lots of new friend... And not just FRIEND actually.. XD Guess I couldn't complain.. Yeah.. I know I'm not THAT kind of person who just introduce urself to whomever you just bump urself into... But surely I just want to be like that... Want to be some1 not introvert like who I am now.. Hahaha... It's too much, I know... I just wished.. Having some friends to spend the weekend with would be nice and  to watch he movie together as well ... BUT What a GODDAMN day today is... Singing some crap songs and even one of the song is written in a language I don't know... I still felt grateful today coz I was still in the same group with my classmates.. At least I had someone to talk with... That's the good thing... But the bad thing is the person I was talking to is the least person of whom I never want to talk with... Bah... I just don't want to remember that part... And If my eyes hadn't been shut because I felt so so sleepy that time, I found the person who enrolled the medicine school was not the person I first had imagined... I think they would be yeah cool and cozy.. But bah... You know what I meant... Guess I can't complain too about this thing... Now I felt so sleepy... Nite everyone... Hope in the second day of the orientation I would successfully make SOME FRIEND... Just wish me luck...